It’s really hard to break up with a friend.
Many don’t realize it, but friendships, often with far more longevity than “true” relationships, can be volatile and just as heartbreaking to lose. Especially ones that go on over periods of years, with their share of sparring, drama, and angst.
And then, suddenly, that day comes when you realize that your friendship has ceased to be a pleasurable thing. Not only are you not having fun, or enjoying the other person’s company – but you are enjoying your own self less than you used to.
Relationships can sometimes do that to you…you cease to value yourself, and as your own esteem is brow-beaten, you become sort of a shell of yourself – and truly begin to believe you are worth less, deserve less, and are entitled to less respect than you are getting.
And then, you decide to get it back…but are so afraid of losing what has now become a emotional crutch that the alternative – even though a healthier world – seems far scarier than the reality.
Eventually, for your own salvation, you have to take your walk out of that person’s life – as lost as you may feel doing so, and when taking that stroll, I wore Restricted Audrey Plum Suede T Strap Brooch Heels, $59.50 at Lulus.com.
The shoes, much like my decision to be a stronger, more independent me, has layers – luscious suede (to symbolize treating myself to a better me), a upper flower (rebirth), and plum shading (the color of riches, and royalty…I’m sure there’s a metaphor for that in there somewhere too…)
Anyway, they are just really cute, and great for fall. And they make me feel better. 🙂